Closest Encounter

I haven't been writing much lately but I have come to the closest ever to losing my life this year and it happened on the very first day of Chinese New Year. Thank You God that you have sent angels from above to avoid the greatest tragedy upon my family all beacause of me. That day ,we could have all perished easily if not because of Your Mercy , for I rather be called home that day than to bear the guilt of seeing any of my family members go . So thankful that day before the journey got started a song came from my heart to sing along with Tiffany(youngest cousin) ..."My God is mighty to save"...reminds me of how true Your Words always are...for ."Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved"(Romans 10:13).....Truly sorry for all my loved ones and especially to the one and only one who didn't know about it when it happened as she was out of the country.

                            

My Love.....

My Love...did you know I have been searching for you all my life .?....Each day has come and gone and being totally clueless...relationships come and go the way it is until it took a screeching halt and just when I thought my heart could never beat for someone anymore in a special way...there you are in the nick of time...giving me hope and my heart a different beat...this time even better because it beats so differently whenever you are near or far...trust me my dear , I have been in love before but this time it is so different and something that I could hardly recognize from those past and it makes me believe that true love is what I am feeling right now....

My Love....So where have you been all my life? Why must it take so many people to pass us by to discover each other?.....Did you ever realize that we are always near each other?...we were probably standing in a different block for 3 years..we could even be brushing each others shoulders in the school hall or the corridor for goodness sake...and living just 10 minutes apart from each other for many more years....yet it took 27 years and half way across the sea for me to discover you in a way that was beyond my imagination...So near yet so far my dear...It sounds like a plan from heaven....as I am believing that this is what was meant to be....us to be together now...and hopefully forever

My Love...being with you is a like a dream come true....I am so glad that we love each other now....even being miles apart could not seperate the deep feelings I have for you and I've never felt this way before for anyone...near or far....I am waiting for the time to come where you will be by my side again...and the day that we would always be together for the rest of our lives....i will not stop believing in that because i am convinced that no time , space and dimension would ever stop me from loving you....I will cherish you like a gift from heaven...and definitely I will love you Samantha Forever...

It's at this hour that I feel.....

It's at this hour that I feel.....so lonely without you when the whole world takes to their sleeping bed.... I am staying awake wondering how you are doing at this moment.....how you are feeling with your pain that you have been complaining about yesterday....how sweet your face is at this quiet hour...your new sexy hair style....when u are fast asleep.

It is also at this hour that I feel.....missing you is so real ever than what I have ever felt before....missing your smile in the day....and the uniqueness of your lovely personality....missing your sweet lovely voice........missing your beautiful eyes.....missing your little bully jokes you love to pull on me....missing your heart to heart talk...missing every inch about you....missing you to death....till tomorrow comes....another chapter another anticipation...but every second of missing you has kept me going strong....never fading....

therefore at this hour i still feel....that meeting you was never a mistake...a joy to remember for the rest of my life....a strength to carry on....an excitement that never ends....a new tale that unfolds each day...a heartbeat that is different....a determination...that will push me.... forward....although i could not tell the future...somehow I still strongly choose ....to have faith....the courage to dream big....to take that full responsibility even when missed...and to never blame you in what you will choose....till the day comes.....to face the moment of truth...without any pride...or a single doubt...in what you ever want in your life...that will keep you smiling like i hope you are now....

this hour...

thinking of you is like a never ending story.....a fairytale dream that has no beginnings yet so beautifully crafted...and still ongoing ....wishing that it will never end......and even if it ever does...it will still find a way back home .....home to where it belongs....and where it always will belong....I hope you will understand how I feel some day...thou it may not release itself yet....but each day I am falling so cheem deeply....into you....*sigh.....while you are still cautious I hope you understand ...that so far i still cannot bring myself to admit it .....to tell it to your face.....so cheem dear.....hope you dun get nausea by it..... :)   

Tonight I wanna Cry........

Tonight I wanna cry.............
Dear I feel your pain tonight and I don't know why you choose to share it with me where as you have tons of caring people near and around you ......I'm just a mystery to you and yet I'm feeling it from far away but I'm glad that you trusted me this much to see your tears trickling down from your beautiful eyes....never expected  love can hurt a person so much ....brings me back to those days where my heart was torn apart like it never mattered to the one person that matters to you the most....Hence....
Tonight I wanna cry..............
I guess one of the worst characteristics a lover can have is to be ignorant....but believe me dear you do not deserve to be ignored even for one second of your life....but as they say distance makes the heart grow fonder..... and so is mine genuinely each day....finding a way to go home.....someday....I don't know why it has always been this way for me to feel for the one from far rather than some one who is near.....but faith is the only thing that will keep me going on.......Hence
Tonight I wanna cry...............
So that I can walk the next day facing daily challenges and knowing that you will always be there brings a relief even to the toughest problems ....I thought i had wings but I guess I am just a simple human being trying to understand what love is all about.....to be honest I do know what the greatest love is like but that's between Man and God.....yet I do not know why love between humans can be very complicated at times......guess I'm still on the learning curve of it......it would be a lie to say that i totally understand it...Hence
Tonight I wanna cry...............
Because I suddenly feel like running away......further away....to the open path of freedom and passion...I don't know why I am feeling this suddenly...this instance that perhaps.......I have been deliberately told to face my nightmare all over again.......but i do hope that how we connect will never be disconnected in any way.....it will never be fair ........for me and neither will it do to you......beacause to hell with my pride....
Tonight I just wanna cry..............My HEART out for you!......cheem..... just the way u loved it..... :P

Bet Options Anyone?

No today I shall change my blogging habit for once.....for once I will blog when I am conscious and not sleepy! Don't agree...? It's MY Blog and I don't care!!!...OK here's a little something I want to share, I had a spontaneous bet with a cool friend recently about losing weight and  we should reach a certain target until the next time I meet her up.  Whoever hits the target  shall be the winner and the loser shall buy a RL polo shirt for the winner (RM400++) *gulp.....well never mind the price involved but the worst part is the winner also gets the benefit to make the loser do something for him/her. She was quick to tell me that if she wins she would ask me to dress up as a girl(with clothing of her choice) and go hand in hand with her in the Supermarket!!!! cool it really motivates me to win ;P..... Then I gave her my ideas and shall add a few in the list below:

1) Dress up like Britney Spears (from the "oops i did it again" time) and sing one of her latest song "gimme gimme" at a shopping mall hand in hand pleading with a cup.....hmmmm maybe I should forget the hand in hand or else people would think i'm dating a nutter......ahhahaha :)
Britney

ooops i did it again

2) This is a bit crazy......"la chik" in the Supermarket for  1 hour.....hahahhaa.....bet u won't dare do this girl.....hahaha...still thinking of starting late?....eat more eat more hahaha...  well for those who dunno the term....errmm for us to know and for you to find out ;)

3) Dress up like a real clown exactly like this!!!!...ahhahaha
Clown
and and... walk around in the a supermarket/mall saying "peekaboo" for 1 hour!!!......ahahhahaha......bet u are grrrring...ehehhe



4)Dress up as a Ballerina and play badminton with me in a public court for 2 hours!!....eh girl wrong sports ler...hehehee how embarrasing!???
Ballet





5)...................

Well the list can go longer if anyone don't mind help to add it and also give me some fast efficient diet plans to me so I can blog the outcome of it with full details and pic when the time comes....hehehe...!

Cham lo...I cannot SLeEp and I dunno what to do...

Here it is happening again....I still cannot sleep even in the wee hours of the morning  but this one was worth it because it's not work related at least.....It was so worth it that I have to stay awake and type this down because wa beh cai  I don't know what the future  holds and maybe someday I'll look back and savor this very entry....this very moment.

Well as a matter fact I had stayed up the whole night enjoying the chat and talk I had with this very " Lovely  yet Mysterious " soul (no not a ghost don't worry it;s not time for a spooky story yet :) )....I still cannot sleep.....because the effect that got into me is similar to  being  run down by a train....and until now i don't know what the heck hit me...i'm perhaps lying in the open track of freedom...motionless and yet so confused because for the first time in ages that I finally felt the sensations of missing somebody and it is as if someone has opened up new channels to explore and appreciate life while it still exist ....and I still cannot sleep but to think back of our conversation tonight.

I guess I'm still trying to figure out what hit me......I can't even remember when did I ever opened up so much to a total stranger but trust me I am some sort of an introverted person and I don;t just open up easily to anyone...one thing i have to do when I still cannot sleep is to salute you while i still can because yes i admit you are great and yes I know you know it ;P.... You and I spoke of many things but still the honesty is just too much and I have never felt so connected but yet confused at the same time until i don;t even have a clue to what I'm trying say last night.

In our sleep I hope we still wake up to remember where we left the bits and pieces of the conversation but even if you don't and to hell with what effect alcohol has to humans.... It was one hell of a night and definitely a start of a crazy relationship/friendship/kinship/missed the ship????hahahaha and I don't care where it will lead to because I will never know........unless you tell me so.....because right now something in me still cannot Sleep....cheem.....ahhahahahha wtf!

BLoODy COnfused!!!!

I thank God the day He led me to you....but right now at this moment I'm so confused that I might be leaving you soon.....so soon that I never expect that in the midst of our wonderful companionship.... someone wants to ruin it... I know it's not your fault ....and neither is it mine.....but now it's getting more out of hand..... like they always say a leopard can't change it's spots ....i'm so confused.....time is ticking and i'm yet to make a certain decision.....if i stay... you and I will both suffer....so you see, the only light in this situation is that we just part ways.....I am happy and glad that I'm given the chance to know you....you're young but capable of great things....I have faith in the things that will come your way but we both came in the wrong time at the wrong place and probably the wrong people and it's no point arguing ...they are far superior than us.....i don''t know what can be done to revert all this ......as far as i'm concerned... a dog wags the tail not the tail wags the dog....so you see I have to go and until then u will still see me by your side ....but I have to warn you....don't get too close to me anymore......it will break your heart more..it's not easy for me either...until then...it's Goodbye!

gone were those days

Oh darn it!.....I'm so not doing this again, every time i can't get myself into a good sleep I'm writing in this pathetic blog! OK what's bothering me this time...well not that I'm ignorant aware of it but I feel so overweight these days...thanks to quitting slowing down in ciggies sports several months ago that I have been running so far away from my ideal weight the wrong way!!!. What the heck man..being overweight has a lot of disadvantages and the worst of.... it makes u SooOOoo single and come to think of it has been about 5 years since I have been in a relationship with a girl :((((...my bad!!!

Talking about relationships....it's been quite a while now and if stretched a few more years i would have totally forgotten what the feeling of being in love would have been like. I remember back when I was a teenager and looking good...What?  Don't agree?...well back then used to have a lot of admirers from the opposite sex.....screw the overweightness now!....

I think i'm losing the charm that I once had during my growing years as a teenager...I remember i was invited to this friends' party and had his sister hogging me asking me whether i'm single or not...bla..bla bla...etc.. and when I asked why she's asking me so many "personal" questions she merely said a friend of hers is interested...whoa i'm so HOT until you don't even dare to talk to me yourself? well of course la how can you resists this...

Chris_1





hehehehe (photo of my younger bro aged 16)

me mum said my younger bro looked like a carbon copy of me when I was younger and even told people that it was like bringing up a second me or MINI me ...watever..except that I feel that my nose is not that FLAT compared to his!...and I don't have such a pathetic  haircut OK?..(my bro is so gonna kill me)...*sigh*..gone were those days

Occasionally i do get anonymous calls from girls.....and somehow i still  suspect them to be those coward Thresians( rivals of the St Marians) since i remember attending tennis coaching at the SLTA with a bunch of those students ....gosh  nowadays the only calls i get is from my MUM! -__- ......gone were those days

During my college days apart from having a relationship with my first girlfriend(not gonna talk much bout her), i had a girl from the one time methodist church i attended in SA along with her frens come visiting me in my own rented house....oh gosh and they were like 5 years younger than me!!!! and no they didn't come to have some prayer meeting or evangelism thingy ....when I asked her wassup...she said just here to see you....coz my fren was curious to see you too....wow...i'm so mysterious looking too man back then :P........gone were those days

and and...When you're looking so HOT + Mysterious breaking up never felt any better coz it's just a matter of days when u get another one aka my second girlfriend!....hehehe....gone were those days

*sigh* I'm so depressed nowadays that I feel like quitting my job and go to the gym everyday for one year...hehhehe lest till i weigh 60kg....my ideal weight!!! I totally can't survive without sports and that's what I'm not getting due to my long working hours......well it's getting so late and already i feel like a bitch writing this entry!....Adios!!









A new chapter in life...!

It's been almost a month now when I "kicked off" a career as an engineer with a local engineering company and it has been a great experience so far meeting new people and learning the system of the company. At the time when the company was busy with so many projects going on, I would say the appointment of my position did not allow me to relax as most fresh graduates would have the benefit of sitting down and learning things in a longer time frame or training period as most would have gone through.

         On the other hand, I have to be on some sort of a "On the Job training" and the expectations of my superior to pick up as fast as possible means that I have to stay up till late midnights most of the time starting from the first day at work. Of course it was really taxing especially in the first week since I am not used to such long hours of working but as weeks passes by I am getting the hang of it now and to proove of my determination in my work it seems neccesary to go the extra mile at least during these few months until the probation period has lapsed and hopefully I would have been confirmed by then.

         I would say that as an electrical engineer in my company, the scope of my job is not just limited to that field but about 80% of time I find myself engaging in mechanical stuffs and to switch from electrical jargons to mechanical jargons takes a little bit of time but of course my fellow colleagues are kind enough to share thier knowledge and right now I have to do both electrical and mechanical jobs! Now, I can say that in my lifetime I have learnt  3 types of Engineering- Civil(during high school days) Electrical and Electronics(tertiary) and Mechanical(career)!!

            Currently, I am satisfied with my work, pay is good including ovetime pay and still picking up things here and there and hopefully I would establish myself within the company in a year time.....and of course more travelling oppurtunities by then!

Top 10 benefits of an Engineering Career

Engineering offers a rewarding and lucrative career—one in which you can use your mind to find creative solutions to the challenges facing our society. It’s a well-paid profession, on par with business management or law. Electrical engineers with bachelor’s degrees start out earning around $50,000 annually.

In his book Studying Engineering (Discovery Press, 1995), Raymond Landis, dean of engineering and technology at California State University–Los Angeles, lists the following "top 10" rewards and opportunities that an engineering career offers.

  1. Job      Satisfaction

 
Studies show that, by far, the No. 1 cause of unhappiness among people in the

United States

is job dissatisfaction. Thus, it is important to find a career that provides you with enjoyment and satisfaction. After all, you might spend 40 or so years working eight hours or more a day, five days a week, 50 weeks a year. Do you want to dislike every minute of that time, or would you rather do something that you enjoy? For numerous reasons, some of which are listed below, engineering provides a satisfying field of work.


  1. Variety of Career Opportunities

What do Neil Armstrong, Jimmy Carter, and Alfred Hitchcock have in common? Though they eventually chose very different careers - one as an astronaut, one as a president, and one as a filmmaker - they all started with an engineering education.

An engineering degree offers a wide range of career possibilities. Within the practice of engineering, there is an enormous variety of job functions.

    • If you are imaginative and creative, design engineering may       be for you.
    • If you like laboratories and conducting experiments, you       might consider test engineering.
    • If you like to organize and expedite projects, look into       being a development engineer.
    • If you are persuasive and like working with people,       consider a career in sales or field service engineering.


The analytical skills and technological expertise you develop as an engineering student can also be put to use in many other fields. The majority of today’s college graduates will have more than one career during their work life, and engineering can provide a strong foundation for almost any one of them.

3.Challenging Work
In the engineering work world, there is no shortage of challenging problems. Any engineering manager will tell you that he or she has a huge backlog of problems that need to be solved. Generally, "real world" engineering problems are quite different from most of the problems you will solve in school. In school, most problems have a single, correct answer. When you get into the engineering work world, virtually all problems will be open-ended. There will be no single answer, no answer in the back of the book, no professor to tell you that you are right or wrong. You will be required to devise a solution and persuade others that your solution is the best one.

    • ·  4.Intellectual Development

      An engineering education will "exercise" your brain, developing your ability to think logically and to solve problems. These are skills that will be valuable throughout your life—and not only when you are solving engineering problems. For example, your problem-solving skills can help you undertake tasks such as planning a vacation, finding a job, organizing a fund-raiser, purchasing a house, or writing a book.

      · 5.Potential to Benefit Society

      Depending upon your value system, you may not view all things that engineers do as benefiting people. For example, engineers design military equipment like missiles, tanks, bombs, artillery, and fighter airplanes. Engineers are also involved in the production of pesticides, cigarettes, liquor, fluorocarbons, and asbestos.
      As an engineer, however, you can choose to work on projects that clearly benefit society, such as cleaning up the environment, developing prosthetic aids for disabled persons, developing clean and efficient transportation systems, finding new sources of energy, alleviating the world's hunger problems, and increasing the standard of living in underdeveloped countries.

      · 6.Financial Security

      While financial security should not be your only reason for choosing a career in engineering, if you decide to become an engineer you will be well paid. Engineering graduates receive the highest starting salary of any discipline.

      · 7.Prestige

      Engineers play a primary role in sustaining our nation's international competitiveness, maintaining our standard of living, ensuring a strong national security, and protecting public safety. Furthermore, most people know that engineering requires hard work and strong technical skills. As a member of such a respected profession, you will receive a high amount of prestige.

      ·  8.Professional Environment

      As an engineer, you will work in a professional environment in which you will be treated with respect and have a certain amount of freedom in choosing your work. You will also be in a position to influence what happens at your company.
      You will have the opportunity to learn and grow through both on-the-job training and formal training. Often, your immediate supervisor will closely mentor you and help you tackle progressively more challenging tasks. You will learn from experienced engineers in your organization and will be offered seminars and short courses to increase your knowledge. Most likely, your employer will have an educational reimbursement program that will pay for you to take classes toward a graduate degree or for professional development.

      As a professional, you will receive liberal benefits, which will typically include a retirement plan, life insurance, health insurance, sick leave, paid vacation, holidays, and savings or profit-sharing plans.

      · 9.Technological and Scientific Discovery

      Do you know why golf balls have dimples on them? Do you understand how the loads are transmitted to the supports on a suspension bridge? Do you know what a laser is or how a computer works? When you drive on a mountain road, do you look at the guard rails and understand why they were designed the way they were? Do you know why split-level houses experience more damage in earthquakes? An engineering education can help you understand how these, and many other things in the world, work.

      Furthermore, an understanding of technology will provide you with a better understanding of many issues facing our society. For example: Why don't we have zero-emission electric vehicles rather than highly polluting cars powered by internal combustion engines? Should we have stopped building nuclear reactors?


      What will we use for energy when oil runs out? Is it technically feasible to develop a "Star Wars" defense system that will protect us against nuclear attack? Can we produce enough food to eliminate world hunger? Do high-voltage power lines cause cancer in people who live or play near them?

       

    ·  10.Creative Thinking

    Engineering is by its very nature a creative profession. When practicing engineers develop solutions to open-ended, real-world problems, they must employ conscious and subconscious mental processing as well as divergent and convergent thinking.

    Because we are in a time of rapid social and technological changes, the need for engineers to think creatively is greater now than ever before. Only through creativity can we cope with and adapt to these changes. If you like to question, explore, invent, discover, and create, then engineering could be the ideal profession for you.